woman49.gifSomeone once told me that
people got to have a lot of nerve as they got older.
But I'm not in their line.
I get to grow timid.

Now that I've taken the trouble to go up stairs,
I find myself going them down.
No matter how hard I work on it,
I would hold on to the same place at the best.
I felt somewhat disconsolate.

As the years rolled by, I saw the change of heart.
I start wondering it may be a good idea
to go down the steps once in a while.
I come to accept what is happening to me.
When you look down from upstairs,
you see a lot of things you dropped behind.
You would go down and pick them up.
It's not the matter of compromizing.
It's just that I don't think the upper world is 100% better.
It's just that I'm following the course of nature.


年を取ると大胆になるって誰かが言ったけど、
ずいぶん勝手が違うみたい。
どんどん臆病になっていくよ。

せっかく上った階段を、下りようとするんだもの。
どんなにがんばってみても、
せいぜいそこに留まるのが精一杯。
ちょっとさびしい気持ちになった。

それがいつしかね、たまには階段降りてもいいかって
素直に思えるようになる。
階段の上から見下ろすと、落し物がたくさん見えるでしょ。
そこへ戻って拾い上げたくなるの。
妥協したなんて思わないでね。
必ずしも上がいいなんて思わなくなっただけ。
自然の流れに逆らわなくなっただけ。